This doesn't have to be a bad thing. Don't get me wrong, I don't see it as a bad thing. I'm just having difficulties with how I feel about it. It has taken me so long to actually feel at home somewhere.. That I'm a bit reluctant to give it all up again. I have never lived anywhere longer than five years max.. I've never felt at home anywhere really. Not like completely. And I still don't.. But here in my tiny apartment in this city, my music on, it hits me kinda hard that it will take me a long time to get to this point again after leaving here.. And I know that feeling far to well.. It sucks.
Thing is, I have always wanted to travel and see the world. As soon as I love somewhere for a few years, heck months even I feel locked up and just need to get away from it for a while. That's just how I am. How I have become thanks to my parents who dragged me around as a kid. And I kinda got used to that.. And I really do want to travel and see the world. I have always wanted to live abroad on my own. Be different from the regular people around me living their regular lives. Don't ask me why but I hate following the herd. But now it just feels like I have to. And I strongly dislike having to do anything as well. Talk about complicated.
Anyways, I'll not go on and on about this:) I just really needed to get it off my chest. Everything will turn out to be fine, and I'll probably meet really exciting new people. Not to mention learn so much new stuff. Awesome!
Feel better already!
S.Y.K.
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