Allthough I Would have loved to stay in Switserland a little longer, it is good to be home again. I love having Simba around and starting and ending my day with a walk:)

I miss Nelly already, but we've had a really nice week together and I've got renewed energy to do the things I have to do.

I've read a book when I was there: Numerology- Dan Millman. Very interesting. I've read it before when I visited Nelly, but everytime I read something new which catches my eye. The thing I find particularly interesting about this book is that it doesn't make you feel like someone is forcing something on you. It just shows another view on us as humans. You don't have to believe in what it says. It's just interesting. I for me found many interesting and familiar things in it. And whether I really believe it or not is not important, because it has inspired me to live my life the way I think is good for me. I will start painting again, I'll take more time to walk Simba and do sports. I'll finish the studies I am doing right now so I'll at least have a diploma. And after that I'll just see what will come my way. Thank god I am master of my life, and make choices of my own.

Every day is a choice. Will I get up? And if I get up, will I go to school/work? Will I do this with a sad or a happy face? Will I try and make the best of it or am I gona be miserable all day because I don't really want to be there? And if I realise that what I am doing makes me so miserable, then why don't I do something about it? I know very well that this is easier said than done, but in the end, this is what it comes down to. Sometimes you're in a less fortunate situation, which you can't instantly change. Then why not try and make the best of it? Instead of being miserable all the time.. Maybe later things will change for the better, you knever know. I do know that you won't be able to see that if you are busy hating it so much, though.

( I'm not talking about horrible situations that are being forced on you, don't get me wrong!)

I have let crappy things and very rotten feelings get to me far too long in my life. I'm not saying I shouldn't have.. Everything that's happened has made me stronger and more determined to live life and wear a smile. It still hurts and sucks sometimes, and I don't think that will ever go away entirely. I've just found a way to deal with it. I've made a choice: accept the situation and make the best of it, work hard and enjoy all the good things. Or let it get to me and bother me every day. Haunt me in my sleep and wear me out completely. I chose to deal with my problems, accept that some things in life will never change, no matter how much you would want them to or how hard you try. The hardest part was to accept the harsh fact that I am the only person who will have to make myself happy. Because no one else will do so. I am the only one responsable for my life and how I live it. Same goes for the lives of others. I have had such à hard time letting go and accepting that I couldn't change or help particular people in my life. There is nothing more painful than seeing someone make him or herself miserable, or being captured in a situation that makes them unhappy, even though they don't see this, or don't want to see it. It is so cruel to have to watch and not be able to do something. Because you love them so much. But you just cannot change people, or help them change or deal with à situation differently if they don't want to:( The hardest part is letting them go.. Accepting that it will not change. Accepting that they choose to live their life this way, even though you (and maybe they too) know that it could be so much better..

I learnt the hard way, but thank God for those great and loving people who have helped me get through this myself by just being there for me. By listening to me whenever I needed to get it off my chest. For all those times I just sat there and cried. For all those moments where we just listened to music together thinking about life. And thank God for my dearest dog, who has forced me gently to genuinely look into the mirror and reflect. To get up every day. Who has helped me see and enjoy those little things in life which make life worth living.

I know these thoughts and the pain will keep visiting me every now and then. But I don't care. I know that there are à few people who will be there for me. And I know I can get through and see the sun shine again.

I really look forward to starting painting again. I look forward to doing things that make me feel peaceful and at ease. My little holiday was like a cleansing for my soul. To get away from everything which was blocking my energy and spirit and just breathe.. Mmm. I recommand it to everyone who has the chance. My grandfather always used to say: where there is à will, there is à way.. And I think he is right. I'm not saying that that way is always easy. I actually think it mostly is not easy at all. On the contrary. But why should that be a bad thing? Why not beat some challenges along the way? Some say: What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. If you are willing to take a real look in that mirror, and dare to accept the challenge, I think you're already half way there. Everybody has minor faults in their personalities. But every weakness can be turned into a strength if you try and look at it differently:) as long as you keep working on it, you'll be fine:)

While I'm writing this I'm listening to this song: little secrets by Chamberlin. I love that song:) listen to it and feel the vibe.. Maybe we can listen to it together someday and think about life and smile at each other, me smoking my pipe and you having a sip of that grand raspberry liqour I brought home with me from Suisse:)

Sleep tight mateys, see yous next time!

S.Y.K.

Big Yellow Digger

I love being on holiday. I love having good weather during my holidays, when It's nice and warm and sunny. I have absolutely no problem with getting a nice walnut tan. But oh my god do I hate the insects that come with these things!! Unfortunately for me , have I got sweet blood. These horrible little creatures called mosquitoes are absolutely in love with me. I think they are one of few who have managed to get to almost every part of my body.. and left a mark!! Thank you very much, horrible little things! NOT!!

And if things couldn't get any worse, these flies, who are usually just annoying, happen to love my blood as much!! G'damnit!!! I knew that flies could sting, but lay your fecking little stingers on someone else, for crying out loud!!! That I love this country so much doesn't mean that I want to look like it, with all the colours and the humps!! Grrr..

Anyway, as you might have understood already, I did not have such à great night last night, because of my little flying, soon not to be alive, friends. And to make things worse, last night was so increadably hot, both inside the house as outside, that it was impossible to sleep anyway. And as an icing on the cake, a harsh thunderstorm came around 01.00am. The wind made the whole house shiver and creach, and it was both magnificent and a bit scary, because I have never experienced such à fierce thunderstorm. Felt like a hurricane had hit us.

Luckily, yesterday was a really nice day, in which I finally got to buying a pipe!!:D I was so exited, and still am, and can't wait to have a smoke with my dear friend Nelly:) Since I am still a woman, I bought some light mango tobacco with it, and some filters. I don't want to instantly get myself some lung cancer if I don't have to. I know it is stupid to start smoking a pipe anyway, but humans were made to do stupid things, and since I am quite à good girl all round, I figured it wouldn't be too bad to enjoy myself a little smoke every now and then. I can see myself smoking whenever I really miss Nelly and the calming, healing ambiance of Switserland.

Also, smoking my pipe brings back very good memories of someone who has meant a lot to Nelly, her family and me and it somehow makes me feel like he is still around. I feel that way anyway, but when we smoke it is a bit like honouring and remembering him, and just thinking about that makes my heart glow.. :)

I have the same feeling with cigars. My dad used to smoke cigars, and I used to love that smell. Now, whenever I smell the scent of cigars, I feel like that little girl who sat with her father, him smoking a little cigar..

I haven't seen my father for 17 years, until I came to visit him thanks to my cousin Thesi, three years ago. I've only seen him once since and speak to him only every now and then whenever we both can and feel like it, via Skype. Thing is, since my parents got divorced, I haven't really gotten the chance to know him.. And I've always wanted to.. I really wanted to know who the other half of me belonged to..
But somehow, now that I have the chance to get to know him better and maybe even see him this very week I don't really know how to handle this..

I love him to bits, but I really don't know him, and I find it hard to just step into his life and be there.. It must be weird for him too, since I left as a small kiddo, and all of a sudden I'm a full-grown adult. I don't often talk about this, but it does get on my mind every now and then and I honestly mean it when I say that I would love to know everything about him. But when it gets to te point where I should really give him a call, or like now would maybe even have the chance to meet him again, It's not that easy.. I don't know what's holding me back.. Maybe I just can't really, or don't want to really accept the fact that the days that we've lost will never come back. I have longed so much for a dad who Would sit with me and listen to my stories about school, who would be proud and protective of his only daughter and stuff, when I was younger, and I have to accept that those times are over. I will never have that. It can just as much be that even when he would have been around, he wouldn't even have done that.. So I know that it is stupid to unawarely hold on to this. I know like no other that I should go on and make the most out of the time that is still given.. Same goes for my grandparents and cousins..

I want them to know that even though I sometimes can't bring myself to visiting them, I still love them very much and time will come when I will definitely visit them as much as I can! I just hope that it won't be too late..

I've known a song, which others will most likely not feel the same about, but which has great meaning to me.. You should maybe listen to it and try and understand how I sometimes miss having that dad, missing the one I have, and also missing the one I could have had if that person would have seen it as a gift rather than a nuisance.. I can cry when I hear that song, for all the children in the world who do not get to see, or do not even have loving parents, who always have their best interests at heart. I can cry for al the people who have had loving parents but who lost them.. You know, that's the beauty of a song.. Of all arts.. That even when the text doesn't exactly say all this, this is what it says. Or can say.. Same goed for paintings, photographs, etc. The one who creates, often doesn't even know how much his creation says to people. That's the beauty of it. If there is a God, he must have known.. To have gifted some of his human beings with the talent to help, comfort, astonish, bring love, peace, calme and all the other feelings to one another:)

That is exactly why I love nature so much. And animals. My dog. Maybe that is why I love Switserland so much. It always seems as if the people here try to live as much in harmony with nature as they possibly can. No, they are not better of perfect, but they cherish their land, and I love that. The way they keep their graveyards looking beautiful and looked after, the way they are proud of their homes and decorate them with beautiful flowers.. The way they treat their cattle with respect, let them out and about, care for their animals.. That's why I love being here. Love being surrounded by them cowbells all day long when at Nelly's home.. I love being with his family, who was once almost mine.. I love having a good laugh with Nelly about something simple, when we're both tired and annoyed by the heat and the insects and maybe even a bit tipsy when we've enjoyed a glass ( or maybe two;) at dinner. I love everything here, and I don't feel like going home next saturday at all..

I still haven't decided whether I am going to visit my grandparents and my dad.. But I do know that I love them, and that I absolutely want to see them again.

Btw, the song you should listen is called: JCB- Nizlopi. Maybe you will understand what I mean with that.. Maybe not.

I will think about this moment every time I will have a smoke, and I will smile.. :D because we are blessed. Blessed with everything we have, everything that has been given to us. As long as we accept that we are who we are, and that things just do happen to us, good and bad. We've all got flaws in our personality, which we should and can work on, to make us stronger, to make us wiser. If we do that, if we listen to our body, and to the needs of our soul, we can be genuinely happy and content, and live everyday to the max. Without holdig back, without being scared to love or be loved. Without being scared that something bad will happen, or change. Bad things do happen, and some things will change.. No matter how many or little chances we take.

I for me, can honestly say, if I were to have a heart attack right now, or die of something else, I would be absolutely ok with it, because I think I have learnt and I have understood which things are important in life. Doesn't mean that I am perfect now, and that I will never question love of anyone again in my life. I will, and I will also make mistakes. But I will be aware of it, of myself and my being and I will always keep working on it. Because I want to live life to the fullest, because I feel that I owe it to all those who can't for whatever reason. I feel like I should feel thankful for everything I have, yes also for my lovehandles and my big nose;)

If you are open to seeing the small things in life, the beauty in your opposite, and can accept each others differences, I think you can be a happy and content human being. And maybe help some of the others who have difficulty seeing or adapting themselves. Help them live. Help them love. Help them be.

That is what I want. That is what I wish for. I don't want to be self-absorbed. I don't want to be negative and pessimist. I will always have an idealistic and realistic view on things. But that's me. And if you care about me enough to look beyond, you'll find my bigger than big heart, full of love, for you, and for all those who need it and accept it.

Thank you God. Thank you parents. Thank you soul, for letting me get this insight at this age. I'll try hard to make magic happen around me:)

R.I.P W., for all the love you have given, for the example you have been, for everything. I hope you look after us, wherever you are. Thank you for helping me come back to my homeland to heal my soul again and again. You've foreseen and you've known this maybe all along. We love you, and still miss you..

For all the loved ones we have lost, and miss so very much: we don't forget about you and one day we'll meet again:)

Look around you.. In every drop of rain, in every thunder storm.. In every ray of sunlight, in every flower, in every tree and in every living thing, there is life. Let's love it, let's take good care of it, let's cherish and enjoy it. For life was meant to be lived. Be it short, be it long, let's enjoy and hold on to it, let's let go when it's time. Let's love, because love is that one thing that makes everthing shine, when not mis-used.

With love,

S.Y.K.

Bäzi Weinachten

Together in the garden.. After a really grand cheese fondue..

How content and happy can one be. After a hot and sunny day, lots of laughter, lots of fun in the sun, there is absolutely nothing better than sitting in the garden, after a very nice dinner with friends, I cannot say more than that I am totally and utterly content and happy. Whenever I wake up, the window being open, the scent of summer in my dearly beloves Bernese Oberland reaches my nose and makes me thoroughly happy.

I cannot explain the feeling these smells give me.. It is a feeling of homecoming, of friends and family, of love and all the beautiful things this globe has to offer:) It is THE smell of summer, the hay which is just been cut, the faint sound of cowbells all around, and the stars are so close by, you feel like you could almost touch..

If only I could put a little bit of this scent in a jar and take it home with me..

:)

I genuinely wish that one day I can share this moment, this feeling with my best friends.

I love this place, I feel so good being here. It is almost as if I can go back to basics completely and realize exactly those things that are actually important in life. I wish that everyone could experience this kind of feeling at least once in their lives.. It brings so much humbleness and relaxation.. You have no idea:)

Tonight I saw a falling star twice, and I made a wish..

I wish I could explain how I feel about this country, the land, the pastures, the wheat, the corn, the cows with them authentic bells ringing all day and night, these spectacular views all around and the mountains.. The sun making everything even more impressing and the colours even more grand and beautiful..

If only now I could have had someone to love, we could have made ourselves a bed outside, under the starry skye, watch them fall together, smell the scents of the Swiss summer, have loving sex with the white snowed mountain tops in the background and the cowbells being the best, most humble soundtrack of life ever.. And after, been waken up by the sun who would gently kiss our skin in the morning..

That would be great:)

I could try and tell you all the stories and all my experiences of my stay here.. But it would be a waste, because even reading this makes me realize, that this country and my feelings for it can only really be understood if you know my complete background, my past, my now, and my plans and wishes for the future.. And you could never understand or get even a bit close to knowing what I saw..

Not even the pictures can bring it across, while I do not have a proper camera with the right lenses and ofcourse my non-exhistent technique;)

I love it here and hope to show you where I come from one day.. Be it in person, be it with pictures, paintings or whatever..

For now, bye!

S.Y.K.

The night before

Have you ever felt lost?

I guess we all know what it is like to feel alone. No exeptions. I feel alone right now. And restless. No one to talk to, not even my dog's here to accompany me on the couch while I'm playing the guitar.

Did you know that we feel alone more often than we realise? Did you ever stand in the supermarket thinking about what to eat tonight or standing in line waiting your turn to pay too much money, and suddenly feel hopelessly alone? It's not as present as when you lay in bed looking at the sealing and missing that extra body in your bed. Maybe you don't even realize.

Have you ever seen something extremely funny on your way to work, or on your way home, which left you with a huge (inner) smile on your face, but two seconds later the smile is gone because there is no-one to smile with ya. I know I have.

We all know the lonely nights on the couch. We all know the nights alone in the bed. We all know those parties were everyone else seems to be there with someone, or seems to be surrounded by friends like bees to their honey. Those are the moments we usually realize that we are alone, and also feel that way.

I have thought about this many many times before. I have felt so alone, so many times in these past 24 years.. So many moments I couldn't share with anyone. Even when there were loads of people or friends around, I felt alone. Completely and utterly alone. Just me against all those wo just wouldn't understand anyway. Sound familiar?

Funny, thing is though, all this thinking made me realize something else as well. There is a difference between feeling alone and feeling lonely. I'll try to explain.. If you feel lonely, you feel sad. In that moment you Would want someone to be there with you, who would make that feeling unnecessary. That person or those people would be the reason that your loneliness Would be gone.

If you feel alone, you don't have to be sad. You can also feel enlightened, or different, or special, or weird, or lonely, or well, alone. Like now, I am not really sad, I don't necessarily need someone to be here, I'm looking forward to tomorrow. I somehow feel quite humble, as if I suddenly realize how tiny and unimportant we are as single human beings. With this I do not mean worthless, please do not go there. I just understand all of a sudden, that we are cattle in a herd for a reason. People are not meant to be alone. We prefer being with or around other human beings. Simpel as that. Now those of you who know me a bit better, will instantly say 'but you hate being part of the herd'! I know, You're right. I do not like being one of many, heck, I even like being alone most of the time. And there are also people who feel like me. (And maybe even moreso, because I do try to fit in when necessary.)

It's so much easier to be alone than having to convey yourself into something that fits in with the rest. But still, I do feel alone sometimes and it is during these moments that I realize how much I cherish my friends, how much I like being with them and how often I really suck at being a friend to them myself! I love being free, free to go where I want to go, do whatever I want to do, and do it right now if possible. And I strongly dislike having to set boundaries and to be completely honest, I am also sometimes almost allergic to appointments, even if they are with my best friends.

Good thing is, is know myself, and I think I figured out where this comes from in my case. I speak only for myself on this blog so I'm not saying this is the general reason for this kin of behaviour! I think, I have a problem with this because I missed out on some things during childhood. For example, I have never lived in the same place longer than five years. If you move to some place new, it takes between three and five years to make new close friends, to get thouroughly used to your surroundings, to know all the ins and outs at a job etc. Or in short: before you get attached. In my case, I guess I have never really gotten attached, which made it hard for me to know what it is like to belong somewhere. To belong to a group of people. To belong to someone. As a kid I was removed from places, people, friends etc. many times again and again before properly getting attached.

This does not have to be negative at all, for I've gained lots of life experience and I've met many Nice people along the way. And looking at my brother you can do with this whatever fits you best. He's dug himself a hole, planted his tree and poured concrete in, some call it marriage, and that way attached himself to everything he was looking for in life. I admire him. I think it is great how he's able to make himself part of this group of people that surround him. And they all love him.

But I'm different. In me it resulted in often feeling like an alien amongst most people. Feeling awkward because you just don't really fit in anywhere. The stupid thing is, I am the one causing myself not to fit in completely. The idea of belonging somewhere both appeals to me and scares me to death. Somehow it makes me feel like I lose my freedom if I do that. It's something I want more than anything else in life, and something I absolutely do not ever want for to happen. (Goddamnit, these shitty contradictions!!)

Anyway, tonight I feel alone. But it's à Good thing, because it makes me want to enjoy the next few days to the absolute max!! My heart swells when I think about seeing some of my most beloved human beings again. I can't wait to be up all night, talking about all this and so much more, and being dead tired and laying in the sun for all the next day. I can't wait to wrap my arms around one of the few people I love the most so tightly that I could almost squeese her to death. I can't wait to breathe in the cleanest most freshest air ever to touch my lungs. Smell the hay in the morning when the sun just comes up. See the mountains from te balcony as I enjoy those scarce moments just before sundown when the mountaintops turn flamingo.

All these things I hope to share with someone, someday. And I hope that person will feel the same juice of love, contentness and acceptation running through his veigns, as will run through mine. I want to stand on top of that mountain and feel exactly that what Isbells sing in their song 'Elation' looking at the other person smiling, knowing he feels exactly te same.

But for now I'm okay. I feel grateful for everything I have, grateful for being healthy, grateful for being able to do all this in te first place, grateful for having my own appartment, grateful for the way I look and even grateful for who I am. And real grateful that I get to hop on that plane tomorrow to visit beloved people, my beautiful home land, maybe even my family.

I know I don't always show this and certainly don't say it often enough but to my dear friends and family, I genuinely love you guys and I want to thank you for accepting me the way I am, even if that means you are expected to read my long long rambling on about all the above and more to come!

Contradiction

I couldn't sleep last night, which gave me too much time to think.. And once I start thinking.. Oh boy, ask my friends, you can get ready for some heavy stuff..

Because yesterday's post was already quite heavy, I wanted to keep my next post a bit more cheerful. I'm afraid though, I will have to owe you that one, because today there's only one thing on my mind: Because I'm leaving to Switserland this Thursday, my dear little doggy will be leaving for his own little vacation at friends of mine.

So here's the contradiction: I thoroughly love my Brown little bear, and try to keep him close to me, every step I take. But to be honest, I'm very happy that he will be staying with these dear friends of mine for little more than a week.. Reason is, it can be very tiring to be so young and having to take care of a dog every day, day in, day out. Specially such a sweet, sensitive dog like mine. So, on the one hand I absolutely love my dog, and wouldn't want to miss him for the world! But on the other hand, It's a huge responsability to make sure he gets everything he needs and deserves. And to be completely honest, sometimes it can be a little bit too much.


My dog is my mirror. He is probably the only being on this planet who give me completely honest feedback on how I live my life. It's frustrating! But also very nice, if someone knows you so well.. I've had him for five years now, and in those five years, we have never really been seperated. I mean not like for real. Of course I've been on holidays and stuff, but never longer than two to three weeks. He has always slept in the same room as I do, and sometimes he even cuddles up beside me when I wake up. You can imagine that this cute little dog of mine knows me better than I do myself! I will give you an example:

One day, all of a sudden, I noticed that Simba was really quiet. Not just calm like usual, but really quiet. He didn't really eat much and didn't really want much attention. First I thought that maybe he was just having a bad day or I don't know.. Whatever. I started watching him a bit more closely, and it didn't change. I even took him to a vet, but she told me that there wasn't anything wrong with him. This went on and somehow I started having real trouble with my stomach. Pains, inflation, and more awkward stuff I'm not going to mention. It became so pressing that I went to see a doctor myself. You know what he told me? I was having stomach problems because of too much stress, too little sleep, not enough sports and way too much on my mind. So, I had to start walking the dog more often, eating right, doing more sports and all that. And well whatta ya know: my dog started changing too!

To make an already long story not too much longer, I finally saw the light and realised that my little monster knew way before I did that I wasn't happy and didn't take Good enough care of myself. Recognize this?

Anyway, tonight, in a few minutes, my friends will be here to pick him up. Hè will stay there for app. 10 days while I am off on holiday.. And even though I love not having to get up early in the morning to walk mr. simba for the next ten days, I somehow can't help feeling à bit miserable for leaving him behind and giving him away to the caring hands of others..

Unbelievable how two strong feelings can contradict inside you like this.

Freedom versus responsability and love

I'm lucky, I get to have both;)

Dear friends, I will now spend these few last minutes on telling my puppy to be Good, not eat catpoo and so on, and will keep you guys posted..

Watch out for my stories on Suisse as of Thursday!!

S.Y.K.

Happy single! ( or not..?)

To be or not to be.. Single

How many of you have frowned with irritation whenever you've heard someone say: I'm a happy single? Haha, yeah, I know, haven't we all.. But I have to say.. I couldn't be happier at the moment. And I am definitely single! You wonder why I bring this up on this particular Monday evening? Well, I'll tell you why: My dear neighbour and becoming one of my best friends has started dating again after being in a relationship for five years. And of course I am the first person to know how things are going since we see each other each day. I absolutely love to be involved in the whole process she's going through to find that one guy, that one special person all of us women secretly still hope we will find someday. Thing is, all of her dates have let her down up till now, so it's also up to me to cheer her up every time these idiots acted like complete losers the day after.. Don't get me wrong, she is not desperate or anything, she would just love to find someone to love, share life, have babies etc. the whole shabbang. It's just that, I'm running out of explanations of the jerky behaviour these guys display.. I try to stay positive and objective but that's real hard sometimes. I know it might sound cliché or pessimist, but I really wonder sometimes if it is actually possible to find another human being who is worth going through all the troubles of falling in love, getting into à new relationship and all that.. Looking at my matey going through this roller coaster of highs and lows similar to the old " he loves me, he loves me not, he loves me.." thing from when we were young, makes me a bit reluctant to believe in genuine, selfless love myself.

This is such an old discussion, where everyone has his or her own opinion. Secretly most of us still really want to believe that such thing as true love exhists, where others are less hopefull and some don't even hope for it any longer. Being a true-hearted dreamer myself, I refuse to give up the idea of finding a mate for life, but I am nonetheless really truly and utterly happy to be single and genuinely content with the way my life is right now.

I dislike people saying ' don't worry, you're still so young, you'll definitely find someone.. Just wait and see..'. Why do they feel the need to tell me this every time this subject comes up? Do I really come across as a miserable, sad person, who sees things only in black and white? I hope not! Can we not just talk about this without all these clichés, all this heart-felt, well meant advice and shit? Sometimes it just feels great to talk about things like this, just to get it of your chest so you can get up the next day and wear a smile as if you actually mean it. Why do I instantly get the label "pessimist" or "negative" just because I like to sometimes talk about real things that bother many of us? It's not like I don't know that everything will eventually be allright.. :) I just wonder, because I honestly feel that It's going to be hard to find someone who will be happy living alongside me..:)

Anyway, what I wanted to say, haha, is that I realised today that I am happy being a single woman. Yes, I do still want to find that one awesome person who will make my life golden, nobody really wants to be alone for the rest of his/her life. But right now, I would not want to swap lives with the odd happy couple:) no sir, not for me. Living the standard married life, with a big house, two kids and a chocolate brown lab is not for me anyway. That picture scares the hell out of me!

Well, enough about this for now! I've decided to live my life, regardless of what will come, regardless of whom I will or won't meet etc. I love my friends, my family, my dog and since I cannot look into the future, I'll try and make the most of every new day. I even feel better now that I've shared these thoughts! 

Dear friends, for all you searchig for love, don't give up, but don't try to hard either! For all those who feel like me, not to worry, things will go exactly like they were supposed to go, so let go and live life!

And most important: don't forget to smile along the way;)

Soundtrack to this blogpost: Keane-Strangeland (album)

Nice to meet ya!

Hiya Everyone!

So nice to meet y'all. I can't believe that I've finally started my own blog. Don't worry, I am well aware that this is only a novelty to me, you have seen many before reading mine;)

I have been thinking about starting a blog for so long.. Everytime I thought, yeah come on, you should, I just let it go.. But now, here it is. Damn, took me long enough. Well, It feels good to be able to share my life with at least the people I care about in my life. Since I am planning on moving around the world before settling down, if I will ever do so, it will be nice to give my loved ones the opportunity to follow me around, enjoy life with me, cry with me when needed etc. etc. If you're not one of my loved ones (yet) no need to worry: I have a big heart, with plenty of room for genuinely nice people.

Before I shortly introduce myself to you, I would like to thank someone special for inspiring me to start blogging for real. N. thnx for visiting, and letting me into your world..:) People, if you are into some real cool and arty Photography, don't forget to check out my dear fellow blogger: www.checktwoshoes.blogspot.com

I study International Business and Languages, live in The Netherlands, but was born in Berne, Switserland. I've lived there till I was five I think, then moved to Holland, had a short break (two years) in Cape Town, South Africa, before moving back to Holland, moved around a lot before crashing in my current town. I have never lived anywhere longer than five years, and am already planning to leave my current home for an unknown new place to live. The reason: I am going to do my graduation internship somewhere in a foreign country. I would love to do so in Switserland, to get to know my family there a bit more and get in touch with my roots again. My second choice would be South Africa, to see that side of my family again too. But any country will do, as long as I get the opportunity to learn a lot, be free to share my ideas, help a company to work more environmentally friendly. (Any tips? post a comment and I'll get in touch! I am interested in Marketing, Sales, Account management in companies specially focusing on Environmentally friendly entrepeneurship)

Following this blog you will be able to get an insight in how I see the world, the society we live in, my experiences in the countries I am still planning on visiting, the people I meet, the pets they have, nature- because I love nature, the pictures I make on my way, the music I listen to, and all the other interesting or not interesting stuff I will be blogging about. Would be nice to meet people who understand how I think, how I feel, what I see and why I saw it, why I love my dog so much, why I feel like an alien amongst my fellow humans sometimes..

Here's a picture of my bestest little friend, Simba, my own little lion king, since I will be sharing loads of fun experiences I have with him on this blog!

I'll be visiting my beloved Switserland next week, so come back again to read about all the things I will be doing and have done then and show you some pictures to help you visualize;)

Anyway, I'd love to see ya visiting my blog again, so please do so!

See ya!

S.Y.K.