Happy single! ( or not..?)

To be or not to be.. Single

How many of you have frowned with irritation whenever you've heard someone say: I'm a happy single? Haha, yeah, I know, haven't we all.. But I have to say.. I couldn't be happier at the moment. And I am definitely single! You wonder why I bring this up on this particular Monday evening? Well, I'll tell you why: My dear neighbour and becoming one of my best friends has started dating again after being in a relationship for five years. And of course I am the first person to know how things are going since we see each other each day. I absolutely love to be involved in the whole process she's going through to find that one guy, that one special person all of us women secretly still hope we will find someday. Thing is, all of her dates have let her down up till now, so it's also up to me to cheer her up every time these idiots acted like complete losers the day after.. Don't get me wrong, she is not desperate or anything, she would just love to find someone to love, share life, have babies etc. the whole shabbang. It's just that, I'm running out of explanations of the jerky behaviour these guys display.. I try to stay positive and objective but that's real hard sometimes. I know it might sound cliché or pessimist, but I really wonder sometimes if it is actually possible to find another human being who is worth going through all the troubles of falling in love, getting into à new relationship and all that.. Looking at my matey going through this roller coaster of highs and lows similar to the old " he loves me, he loves me not, he loves me.." thing from when we were young, makes me a bit reluctant to believe in genuine, selfless love myself.

This is such an old discussion, where everyone has his or her own opinion. Secretly most of us still really want to believe that such thing as true love exhists, where others are less hopefull and some don't even hope for it any longer. Being a true-hearted dreamer myself, I refuse to give up the idea of finding a mate for life, but I am nonetheless really truly and utterly happy to be single and genuinely content with the way my life is right now.

I dislike people saying ' don't worry, you're still so young, you'll definitely find someone.. Just wait and see..'. Why do they feel the need to tell me this every time this subject comes up? Do I really come across as a miserable, sad person, who sees things only in black and white? I hope not! Can we not just talk about this without all these clichés, all this heart-felt, well meant advice and shit? Sometimes it just feels great to talk about things like this, just to get it of your chest so you can get up the next day and wear a smile as if you actually mean it. Why do I instantly get the label "pessimist" or "negative" just because I like to sometimes talk about real things that bother many of us? It's not like I don't know that everything will eventually be allright.. :) I just wonder, because I honestly feel that It's going to be hard to find someone who will be happy living alongside me..:)

Anyway, what I wanted to say, haha, is that I realised today that I am happy being a single woman. Yes, I do still want to find that one awesome person who will make my life golden, nobody really wants to be alone for the rest of his/her life. But right now, I would not want to swap lives with the odd happy couple:) no sir, not for me. Living the standard married life, with a big house, two kids and a chocolate brown lab is not for me anyway. That picture scares the hell out of me!

Well, enough about this for now! I've decided to live my life, regardless of what will come, regardless of whom I will or won't meet etc. I love my friends, my family, my dog and since I cannot look into the future, I'll try and make the most of every new day. I even feel better now that I've shared these thoughts! 

Dear friends, for all you searchig for love, don't give up, but don't try to hard either! For all those who feel like me, not to worry, things will go exactly like they were supposed to go, so let go and live life!

And most important: don't forget to smile along the way;)

Soundtrack to this blogpost: Keane-Strangeland (album)